Mother's Day

I will just start with most recent. Yesterday was Mother's Day and work my way back....it seems a little less overwhelming to do it that way.

So, Mother's Day....sadly, I am finding that my life has taken a turn to the point of non-stop bop. I am not sure if it was the 5th child entering our lives....the ages that they are all growing to be and all that comes with that such as school work, activities or just run of the mill daily happenings....and there are many of those....but, it seems that finding time just to turn around is challenging. So much so that I was faced with this weekend not even sure how or where to find the time to honor the Mother's in our lives and if I could get that figured out...would there be any time for me? Honestly, I do not worry much about finding time for me but, I did have the thought that I do want my children to realize the importance of honoring not just their Mother...but, lets face it...my boys will one day have wives and they will be my grand children's Mothers and along with that comes Mother in Law's....oh that's strange but, the point is that my prayer is that they have learned by us to honor them appropriately and adequately. While having these thoughts...it brought me back to my own Mother who always takes the focus off her and makes it easy on me....her response to what would you like to do on Mother's Day was..." It doesn't matter...we don't have to do anything....why don't you just enjoy YOUR day"......which to be honest...sounded heavenly...BUT, when the day rolled around and we were juggling sporting events and getting to this place and that....it just really seemed like.....we blew it off. All day that bothered me. It bothered me that even though my Mom was allowing me MY day...which often gets lost in the shuffle by the time we do something for Bo's Mom and my Mom...there is little time set apart to celebrate me being a Mother.....it just didn't seem right that the day would go without that special time for her. It seemed odd that my time with her all day was spent at Hunter's basketball game like many other hours on many other Sunday's.

We decided to dedicate another time to celebrate Mother's Day but, in the mean time....it only seems fair that she would at least get a blog entry. I suppose it means that even when your Daughter's a Mother...you are still making sacrafices and you are still concerned for her happiness above your own....

So, to my Mother.....thank you for always trying to ease my burden even when you might want to be selfish. Thank you for offering to celebrate me at the expense of us not getting together to celebrate you. For all the years of sacrifices and putting me first, many times doing so without even getting a thank you from me. I am thankful for that Motherly ability to know that your children are grateful, may have forgotten to say it....and most of the time...being okay with it. Thank you for the Motherly example that you have set for me so that I could be the Mother that I am to my children. It is my hope that I make you proud. For all the words of encouragement and praise you give me.....to let me know that I accomplish that hope. I hope you realize the blessing I consider you to be as my Mother and the Grandmother to our children. What an amazing women they have to look up to as they grow up......and how they enjoy every minute with you while they are young. The memories you have made with them and the things that you have taught them and the contributions that you have made in molding them to be better little people, I am thankful for everyday. The support and help that you have given me through the journey thus far of raising these 5 amazing children, ....I could not even begin to put into words the magnitude of appreciation and how I am abundantly blessed. I am not sure what makes me more proud....to call you my Mother or our children's Grandmother. How fortunate I am ....to be able to say both.

Please know that while it may be in the quiet when I lay my head down at night or in the chaos of my day....there are definite times that I stop to celebrate you and the fact that you are my Mother.

I love you Mom!

Love you all,
~J